第7部分

請關閉瀏覽器的閱讀/暢讀/小說模式並且關閉廣告遮蔽過濾功能，避免出現內容無法顯示或者段落錯亂。

；　leaving　the　kernel　of　his　purpose　clean。　And　then　it　came

upon　him　that　he　would　marry　her　and　she　would　be　his　life。

Gradually；　even　without　seeing　her；　he　came　to　know　her。　He

would　have　liked　to　think　of　her　as　of　something　given　into　his

protection；　like　a　child　without　parents。　But　it　was　forbidden

him。　He　had　to　e　down　from　this　pleasant　view　of　the　case。

She　might　refuse　him。　And　besides；　he　was　afraid　of　her。

But　during　the　long　February　nights　with　the　ewes　in　labour；

looking　out　from　the　shelter　into　the　flashing　stars；　he　knew　he

did　not　belong　to　himself。　He　must　admit　that　he　was　only

fragmentary；　something　inplete　and　subject。　There　were　the

stars　in　the　dark　heaven　travelling；　the　whole　host　passing　by

on　some　eternal　voyage。　So　he　sat　small　and　submissive　to　the

greater　ordering。

Unless　she　would　e　to　him；　he　must　remain　as　a

nothingness。　It　was　a　hard　experience。　But；　after　her　repeated

obliviousness　to　him；　after　he　had　seen　so　often　that　he　did　not

exist　for　her；　after　he　had　raged　and　tried　to　escape；　and　said

he　was　good　enough　by　himself；　he　was　a　man；　and　could　stand

alone；　he　must；　in　the　starry　multiplicity　of　the　night　humble

himself；　and　admit　and　know　that　without　her　he　was　nothing。

He　was　nothing。　But　with　her；　he　would　be　real。　If　she　were

now　walking　across　the　frosty　grass　near　the　sheep…shelter；

through　the　fretful　bleating　of　the　ewes　and　lambs；　she　would

bring　him　pleteness　and　perfection。　And　if　it　should　be　so；

that　she　should　e　to　him！　It　should　be　so……it　was

ordained　so。

He　was　a　long　time　resolving　definitely　to　ask　her　to　marry

him。　A