第91部分

請關閉瀏覽器的閱讀/暢讀/小說模式並且關閉廣告遮蔽過濾功能，避免出現內容無法顯示或者段落錯亂。

He　turned　away；　afraid　to　hear　more。　She　began　to　gather　her

bag；　her　handkerchief；　her　umbrella。　She　must　be　gone　now。　He

was　waiting　for　her　to　be　gone。

At　length　the　carriage　came　and　she　drove　away　with　the　rest。

When　she　was　out　of　sight；　a　great　relief　came　over　him；　a

pleasant　banality。　In　an　instant；　everything　was　obliterated。　He

was　childishly　amiable　and　panionable　all　the　day　long。　He

was　astonished　that　life　could　be　so　nice。　It　was　better　than　it

had　been　before。　What　a　simple　thing　it　was　to　be　rid　of　her！

How　friendly　and　simple　everything　felt　to　him。　What　false　thing

had　she　been　forcing　on　him？

But　at　night　he　dared　not　be　alone。　His　room…mate　had　gone；

and　the　hours　of　darkness　were　an　agony　to　him。　He　watched　the

window　in　suffering　and　terror。　When　would　this　horrible

darkness　be　lifted　off　him？　Setting　all　his　nerves；　he　endured

it。　He　went　to　sleep　with　the　dawn。

He　never　thought　of　her。　Only　his　terror　of　the　hours　of

night　grew　on　him；　obsessed　him　like　a　mania。　He　slept　fitfully；

with　constant　wakings　of　anguish。　The　fear　wore　away　the　core　of

him。

His　plan　was　to　sit　up　very　late：　drink　in　pany　until　one

or　half…past　one　in　the　morning；　then　he　would　get　three　hours

of　sleep；　of　oblivion。　It　was　light　by　five　o'clock。　But　he　was

shocked　almost　to　madness　if　he　opened　his　eyes　on　the

darkness。

In　the　daytime　he　was　all　right；　always　occupied　with　the

thing　of　the　moment；　adhering　to　the　trivial　present；　which

seemed　to　him　ample　and　satisfying。　No　matter　how　little　and

futile　his　occupations　were；　he　gave　himself　to　them　entirely；

and　f